I'm still here!

To those who have been reading this, I apologize. The greatest reason for my absence is very much based on what you are about to read.... It has been an interesting few months around here.

Like many of you, I have had experiences that lead to questions. The only problem with questions, is finding the answers. Yes, answers come in various forms. But more often than not, we seek our answers from those of greater experience. For much of the last five years I have dedicated much of my personal time to finding my answers, and the results have been very disappointing.

The first "oracle" I sought was someone who possessed uncanny wisdom and abilities like nothing I had seen before. Through my own eyes I saw the unexplainable performed. I approached this person seeking knowledge, and was offered the opportunity to learn something that many may wish they could.

For over a year, I traveled to this person weekly. We started off with extreme enthusiasm. Finally a teacher willing to teach ME. Faithfully, I made the trek every Wednesday, 7 PM sharp. Things began rather smoothly, but then others began to join in and we "students" now totaled four. I thought, initially, that the inclusion of the others would bring a more serious and educational tone to the "classes" we attended. But, rather quickly, it became a messy, innuendo-laden joke. The banter that passed between the knowing and the seekers bordered profane and disrespectful. In retrospect, would now consider it a foreshadow of things to come.

Although the "imp" who instigated the majority of the situation was eventually asked to leave and not return, the educational process continued it's downward spiral into a melodramatic cesspool of rhetoric and anecdotes. When it degraded to the point that it took longer to make the drive than I was learning in the 3+ hours I was there a week, it was time to cut my losses.

So there I was, again, wondering what it is that I have been experiencing my whole life.

Soon after, another distraction required my undivided attention, but more on that some other time......